Can't hold on to, and an artificial red.

    Mr. Johnson (that old man I talked about earlier) had his viewing yesterday night and frankly, it scared me. I had never seen a dead body before. It didn't look like him at all but his wife said "Well my little baby looks like he could just sit up and start singing!" I said a silent prayer that he wouldn't. 'Cause that would be double freaky. But Mrs. Johnson looked beautiful. Her hair was all permed and her lips were a beautiful artificial red. She was wearing musical not socks and had a rather large smile on her face. It made me smile.
So of coarse when I got home I thought for a while. I became aware that you have to let go of the things you never had. Some people might need to let go of their past. But did they really ever have their past to hold on to? No. I guess I should rephrase. You have to let go of the things you can't hold on to. She couldn't hold on to him. You can't hold on to your grades. A mother can't hold on to her child. And, I learned on saturday, you can't hold onto hate either. Some people will act like they can or try to but it's useless and when I finally let go of it, I felt better. But then I realized that wouldn't make sense. What happens after you let go of everything and there's no more to you? You've given it all away and there's an empty little spot flat in the middle of your heart and then what? What goes there? The one thing you can always have, the one thing that will never let go of you. God.
This is hard for me. I don't want to let go.

So that's the first thing I wanted to let out. Now remember a few posts back I said that pretty soon you'd hear me talking about DOUBLE hell week? This is it. I, along with everyone else need prayer to get through this week, and not to just get through it, but to see past the surface of exams and tests and stress. Also, on letting go. So if you pray, please pray. And if you don't, pray too.

Oh and one more thing! From now till Christmas I'm going to try to attach a Christmas-y song for you to hear. Don't expect Jingle Bells and Frosty the snow man- I'm looking for uncommon songs. I'll probably forget BUT oh well. Remind me.

This is an australian christmas song. I got a "kick" out of it. ;)